09.27.04
y8irl:092704.
"Dude, we have to go for a walk, NOW..."

IT HAPPENED, MAY 0X, 1999; past 12 MIDNIGHT

DISHONOURED MYSELF
"to dishonour my family" -I slowly realize, this means nothing to me, in my world.

...in such a litigatious society, where justice is served by the letter and not the spirit of the law, HONOUR can have no meaning.
Instead of I HAVE DISHONOURED MY FAMILY, believe instead, that you have dishonoured YOUR FRIENDS. You have dishonoured the same people in your life that decided that your word was golden and that they could stake their reputation on [it] as well... and [they too], PROUDLY, made the world know that they trusted you - and that they would stand behind you, die for you, and bared their own reputation - everything they believed and said in the past in the future.
If you commit a crime against integrity, you dishonour the FOOLS who said; "...BECAUSE, he is my friend, and I will stand by what he says, and in exchange I bet my soul to YOU!"
..and if you think that YOUR friends chose YOU as a matter of convinience, and never wagered their integrity and trusted you enough to keep yours; then you probably never fucking understood, and never goddamn will. The boys never could change the future because one of them did not believe - and his fight was meaningless. -Judas Gospel [05.00.99]